And by Let US live more intentionally, I specifically mean, let my family – I keep going through phases on this and we’re making progress, but we have so very far to go. And the first place we need to start? Myself. Yep – Momma Hen needs to be the first person to make the biggest adjustments. My first move was to deactivate my Facebook account. It was only a temporary move but it was a necessary move. I get sucked into the world of Facebook – the connections, the interaction, the instant contact and instant information, the instant distraction from things. I tune things out. Sometimes I just disconnect from what’s going on and actually happening around me. I found myself doing that as a “defense” mechanism of sorts. Instead of facing a lot of things head on I was choosing to (more…)
I did another vanishing act!
I’m pretty good at that.
No really, I’m like a magician and I can’t tell you my secrets because a magician never tells. Watch closely.
There are those who come into our lives and they’re only around for a short time. But then there are those fantastic people who come into our lives at some point and they hear our heart song and they see straight into our soul and they take us for every good and bad thing that composes the fibers of our being.
There’s something I haven’t shared. I haven’t shared it because I haven’t been ready and I’m still not sure how ready I am to share. I still have a LOT of unanswered questions about what is going on with my own body. In the grand scheme of things, I’ve only just begun the quest for medical answers.
There are a lot of details, and I feel like it’s a bit too tedious for me to type it all out right now. The short of it is that since I was 15, there have been spells of headaches mingled with migraines. Chiropractic care has been known to bring relief in the past. Then there came a point where I didn’t have medical insurance and I didn’t seek any care, so I just pushed through and took over the counter medicine when the pain was unbearable, and otherwise I just dealt with it.
However, about three or four years ago something started changing. (more…)
Today was the end of my first week as a college senior! After a little over 13 years of college I finally have enough credit hours to be a senior! Sure, I’ll have to be a senior for two years before I graduate, but hey! I’m a senior! And now, some new realities have begun to hit me. (more…)
It’s the last day of the year, right now, as I write this. I thought I should clarify in case you stumble across this blog and it’s actually July 30th, of some future year.
What a year it has been. I feel like there is so much for me to reflect on. Because there is.
I have sucked at keeping up with this site like I was going to. I set out on a journey to start this page about three years ago and my blogiversary has come and gone a few times and I’ve hit a few little peaks and a lot of valleys in my blog journey. I don’t think I’ve come to my summit yet. I think I’m still trying to find my nitch. I have to find my actual voice. The voice I’m willing and able to share. The voice that gives my truth and my transparency that I prefer so that my writing comes with less effort and more ease.
So, 2012… (more…)
Dear Intrusive Terrible Twos;
GET LOST! No, really, get lost. This is my third time in this rodeo with a child of my own, and the 6th or 7th time a child I was highly involved with caring for has gone in this rodeo. I’m over it. Really. I don’t care what the child development professionals say, I don’t appreciate the lessons that seem to “have” to be learned during this chapter of a child’s life. It’s exhausting. Thank heavens for the other moms out there that I know who are willing to admit how frustrating this phase is, otherwise I’d just completely breakdown. I want my pleasant, happy little guy to stay pleasant and happy – not get into this funk where he spends days on end fussing and whining and throwing fits and generally attempting to demand excessive amounts of pampering. I’ve even been known to get so frazzled that I throw a little fit or two of my own. Ugly. It’s simply not a shining moment.
Since I have a feeling you aren’t going to leave until you are good and ready, I have to hold tight to the down time called “nap”. Otherwise? Otherwise you would find me in a rubber room. No joke.
Signed, Ruffled feathers
Well, I didn’t post in time to hit the third day of NaBloPoMo. Oops.
Today I managed to complete a majority of my homework for the weekend before I even got home. That’s a load off my shoulders, and about 7 hours I’ve made available after the Baby M goes to bed (X-man and Lil’ C are gone this weekend). I have several “opinion” pieces I’d like to write over the coming weeks. We’ll see if I get gutsy enough to publish them all. HA!
Despite the fact that I fell off the cyber writing wagon, I’m going to make an attempt at completing NaBloPoMo 2012. This post is going to be such a cheap shot at getting started, but it’s a start nonetheless. Right?
I have more Calculus homework to tend to tonight so I have little choice in making this short. However, hopefully I’ll get in gear starting tomorrow. Happy Blogging!